I am going to be transparent…because that is what I do lol!
However, I went back to work after having my beautiful son Nehemiah, full time. I requested to go part-time and it was denied…they even offered me a raise because of my work performance…go figure. However my heart’s desire is to be a stay at home mom and wife, and do ministry (Banner of Modesty) full time. At the moment that is not possible. However, I am struggling with the concept of trusting God…
Do I just trust God when I am comfortable and every things is okay, or can I trust God when I don’t see how he is going to provide and take care of me Do I use wisdom and wait for an opportunity to come for me to move towards my desires or do I move towards my desires and trust God?
I don’t like being in this place…. I like answer, like most humans. I don’t know how to take a walk of Faith! I thought I did, but this situation is teaching me that I don’t. I walk in faith with the things I have the ability to do …like working a job I am not happy at, and I have faith it will continue to provide for me and my family lol. Is that walking by faith or by sight?
This is such a dilemma…I need your prayers for me and my family.
Also one thing I am sure of is that, “My God is in the heavens…and he does whatever that he pleases!” So I do trust him with my life… I guess I am just ready to see the outcome.
Any Biblical advice?